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Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
3:43 pm
You're a LiveJournal Fiend!

You're into LiveJournal, big time... just not as much as your friends.

Still, you've LJ'ed from work - and made posts about what you had for dinner. Sicko!

You may be safe from the clutches of LJ - or maybe you're just are an adept liar!

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Thursday, October 20th, 2005
8:44 pm
My quote:

"Mine?"- Samantha Bair

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Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
10:12 pm

It's all friends only after this. So if you read this and you don't have a LJ. Get one. Because they're awesome anyway.

Unless you don't care, because my life isn't that interesting.

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Monday, September 5th, 2005
8:48 pm

Today was very productive, I got my whole to do list done.

1) Do law homework.
2) Clean room.
3) Sign up for SATs.
4) Call Mrs. Grant.
5) Go for a run.
6) Paint toenails hot pink.
7) Save dying plants at the house I'm catsitting for.
8) Do laundry
(in progress).

I'm so excited. I never get my whole to do list done. Actually I'm not excited at all. This has been the most boring Labor Day of my life.

School tomorrow. And a 4K. Unless I don't practice with varsity... who knows? I think I'd rather do a 4K than have to workout with Kristen.

Happy Monday, Lovers.

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Thursday, September 1st, 2005
8:17 pm

I'm feel discouraged and maybe a little worthless.

I'm frustrated with crew, my parents, my future, and the loss of my coldplay cd.

But other than that, my day was pretty good. I need to relax and not kick Buffa in the face.

<3

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Tuesday, August 30th, 2005
12:40 pm

Last night was OUT OF CONTROL. An awesome way to end the summer. If you were listening to 95.7 last night, that WAS us on the radio. We totally announced the number 3 song, and we told the DJ about the 'hot girl fun' we were having at our campout. That's probably the only reason he put us through. Then Sam managed to wake up the neighbors half deaf dog at three in morning. It was funny.

Practice really sucked though. Because I was tired. And it was hot and humid. That's ok, it was worth it.

I'm not so sure I'm feeling the whole school thing. Uh oh.

Now I'm going to go take a shower, because it sounds incredible.

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Sunday, August 28th, 2005
6:45 pm

random stuff... )

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Thursday, August 25th, 2005
11:04 pm

So it looks like the end of my summer is going to be pretty awesome. I was all sad about it earlier, for various other reasons, but now I'm excited. Between campouts (so excited), birthday parties, random capture the flag games,  making the 'running around simsbury in our unis" movie, and so much random stuff I can't even remember it all,  it seems like my last days should be pretty exciting. My saturday is so busy, that the 3 different things I have to do all overlap. It's out of control, but I love that. It's good, because the rest of my summer sucked.

Right, so I saw Lindsay Davenport play today. It was really exciting, super close match. Very intense. She won on a tie break. I actually need somebody to explain how tie breaks work, because I realized today that I have no idea. Also, half my face got sunburned. It's really hot.

Tonight I went to Starbucks, and I was supposed to meet like three people. Then everyone I know on this planet showed up. It was fun, even though I have to be the whore on The Real World: Simsbury. Wow, that season is going to be intense.

I'm so tired. My face is sunburned. Well, half of it is.

byeeeeeeeee.

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5:55 pm - Sarah's idea. Well actually not.

To 15 of my LJ friends:

1) You're really... different. I'm completely uncomfortable around you.
2) Your lack of self confidence makes me really upset because you're one of the most wonderful people I know.
3) You've been a great friend, but sometimes I wonder if you even like me. I can tell you anything.
4) You're one of my bestest friends, and you always keep my spirits up. You don't let me get sad.
5) Even though you're the most frustrating person I know, I still love you. You're lucky.
6) I have sooo much respect for you, and I'm not really sure why. You're just cool I guess. I wish I was more like you.
7) We have so much fun together, I wish I saw you more.
8) I'm so glad we're friends again. I missed you so much.
9) You don't talk, like ever. That's usually a good thing.
10) You're annoying and dramatic. I don't like you.
11) I told people I hated you. I don't understand it, because I don't at all. I wish I was closer with you, you're such an interesting person.
12) You can be horribly moody, but you're hardcore down to earth. That's awesome.
13) Thanks for listening to me. Sometimes that's all I need. I'm here if you need me.
14) You've changed drastically. That's ok though, deep down it's still the same person.
15) I've known you for a long time. I still don't understand you.



current mood: not good.

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Monday, August 22nd, 2005
9:37 pm

Hey kids!! I need a big tent for sunday. Does anyone have one I can borrow? I know someone must, New Englanders like the outdoors... right?

Let me know, you'll be my hero.

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7:49 pm

**MUSiC**

{Do you like music?} Obviously.
{What kind of music do you listen to most?} I listen to everything. Ever. Except country. I really just can't do it...
{Fave band/group?} John Mayer, Coldplay.
{Fave singer overall?} John Mayer (even though he sucks), Kelly Clarkson.
{Fave instrument?} Piano.
{What's hot about a musician?} They're just so... talented?
{Britney or Christina?} Britney is a whore. Christina is too. But at least she's not pregnant. I actually really liked that newer cd she made...
{Do you normally burn CD's?} Ummm yeah.
{Have you ever stolen a CD or done something illegal with a CD or music DVD?} Ummm I've never stolen a cd...
{How far would you go to get your music?} Anywhere!
{What would you do if music was banned in your state or country for some reason, besides move somewhere else?} Die. Or be a rebel.
{Who's the hottest singer/musician ever?} John Mayer!!

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1:10 am
Wow. Scott met Andy Roddick. I feel so... connected. It's almost like I know him. Kind of.

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12:42 am

So I saw two movies today. It was totally random because I haven't seen a movie in the theater since The Ring 2. I saw Red Eye and then The Wedding Crashers. They were both good. Red Eye was really good. Rachel McAdams was in both of them. She's definitely awesome. Mean Girls was hysterical. The Notebook made me cry. Red Eye was intense... and Wedding Crashers was cute. And funny. But she wasn't really funny.

I also watched a little bit of tennis today. I watched Andy loser to Federer again. I almost cried. Someone needs to beat that big meanie jerk head. Wow, I'll try to be nicer. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings.

 

Crew starts tomorrow. Actually today. It starts in 8 hours. My life is over. I'm fat. Have a nice day. The end.

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Sunday, August 21st, 2005
7:13 pm

[info]tchnojedi415  has the right idea.

Thanks Nick.

 

Go Crew!!

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Saturday, August 20th, 2005
7:22 pm - From Megan. The SO true ones are bolded.
30 THINGS GUYS SHOULD KNOW ABOUT GIRLS:
This was written by a guy who has had years of experience.

1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house...they run around in their underwear just like we do.

2. DON'T CHEAT ON THEM. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be mud.

3. Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.

4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.

5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.

6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.

7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.

8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.

8.5 If you DO sleep with them, don't tell your friends that you did.

9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not offended by it...

10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales. Haha.. Kat?

11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy..

11.5 Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time! but if she wants to pay let her occasionly

12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.

13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.

14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to beat the heck out of him.

15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.

17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents, and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.

19. Don't flirt with their moms...that's just freaky.

20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like shit, so be understanding.

21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.

22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.

23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.

24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle. and that doesnt mean letting them win everytime either!

26. Memorize their birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.

27. Smell good.

28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful.

29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt her more if you draw it out.

30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

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Friday, August 19th, 2005
9:19 pm - His name is Fuzz.

Not to rub it in. But he is the cutest kitten... ever.

awww.

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Thursday, August 18th, 2005
10:45 pm

So yeah. I'm at the Mauers, housesitting. I'm in a little bit of a bad mood.

Then the cat walked up to me. Meowed once. Bit me really hard. Then slowly walked away. My life.

Cuuuuuute.

Much love lovers.



current music: coooooooooldplay

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8:47 pm

DIRECTIONS: List ten songs that you're currently digging. It doesn't
matter what genre they're from, whether they have words, or even if
they're no good. They must be songs that you're really enjoying right
now. Post these instructions, the ten songs and their artist(s), and
then tag five other random people to see what they're listening to.


The Hardest Part- Coldplay
Till Kingdom Come- Coldplay
White Shadows- Coldplay
All For You- Sister Hazel
Lose Control- Missy Elliot
Like Glue- Sean Paul
These Words- Natasha Bedingfield
Don't Stop Believing- Journey
Come Back to Bed- John Mayer
Take Me Out- Franz Ferdinand

I Tag: Claire, Sarah Keefe, Kattttt, Nicolette, Meg Stroud

Not Scott.

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Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
7:50 am

Our new kitten likes to sleep in the fruit bowl.

 

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Monday, August 15th, 2005
1:10 am

It took over my life. I let it take up my entire fall and spring for three years. I've rowed in parts of seasons that are SO cold that it has to be considered child abuse to have teenagers out in it. I hate being cold. The coldest I've ever felt was at crew. I've dealt with horrible anxiety before every race. It's one of the most horrible feelings in the world. I hate it. I hate all the pressure, the anxiety, being so scared. I hate the drama. I hate the coaches. I hate half the people on the team. I hate the attitudes of even more people on team. I hate that practice always runs late and that my hands get digusting and calloused. I hate blisters. I hate tape and bandaids. I HATE sports bras. I hate erging. I hate pushups. I hate that people swim in that dirty river. I hate Gatorade. Seriously, out of all those, I think hate Gatorade the most.

But, I love crew. I love being on the water. I love having a good row. I love having a hard practice that makes you so tired you fall asleep while doing your homework. I love the friends that I've made. I love the intensity of a race once it's started. I love winning races. I love screaming and hugging and then throwing up the second you cross the finish line. I love how no one in your boat can stop smiling for the rest of the day. I love bus rides to and from races. I love driving to the boathouse after school. I love randomly singing in three part harmony when we're supposed to be doing drills. I love derigging boats, and camping under the Concordia. I love sitting upside down on my shoulder blades and being proud of it because I can't do a cartwheel. I love getting tshirts made. I love having inside jokes. I love dancing around the erg bay to random really old Now CDs. I love running around in unis. I love that almost everybody on my boat last season could be a coxswain. Boat parties, boat pictures. I love how "the boat" actually consisted of a lot more than 9 people.  I love watching freshman do chinese rowing. 

But, I don't know if I want to go back anymore. I'm bad at crew. I'm not strong, and I do not have good technique. I guess the only advantages I have are that I'm not fat and I can stroke a boat. When I got put on third boat Spring of sophomore year, it was complete luck. Renee was down a rower and out of pure luck chose me. I had an incredible season and made incredible friends and rowed in incredible races. The problem was that that season made me believe I wasn't hopeless. It made me love crew. I really really really thought I belonged there. That's why I was so devestated this Spring. I couldn't stop telling myself I've been there, I belong there. I had forgotten that the only reason I was there in the first place was pure luck. I didn't belong there. I had just gotten lucky for a few seasons. I'm not an athlete and I never was. I was fat in middle school, and it took me 10 minutes to run a mile. I tried soccer in elementary school but the only reason I ever got to play was because my best friend's father was the coach. I must have been on crack when I decided to do crew. I'm mad at myself for even starting. I've put myself through so much crap for something that I'm just really bad at. To be quite honest, I can think of two times when I hated my life as much as I hated my life this spring. I tried not to be a drama queen, but I couldn't help it. 

I'm just realizing now that I set myself up for this. It's completely my fault. I'm not sure if it's too late to fix it. I don't know what will hurt more. Going back and possibly facing the same stuff I had to deal with this Spring, or not going back and missing everything with all my heart.  Is it really worth it anymore?

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